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PMS - when everyone who looks at you deserve a tight slap

-hail the bee-yatch..

its not me. its my alter ego. she got back frm milan and found out the mess i've made and went nuts.

1) thomas moran
went to the new national lib yest with shaf..it's..nooottt that spectacular..too many ppl. but hey i got another thomas moran bk there so am not complaining. bonus: its NEW bk. my review on this after i finish reading. decide that he's as brilliant as..shakespeare! but in different manner. have so far read 3 of his bks and this is the fourth, fifth which he had written. i wanna read his third novel 'water, carry me' but cant ever find it..so if anybody found it at any bkstore can help me get it? i'll pay you back.

2) full of water and stones
lately have been pretty upset abt stuffs. shall just chalk it up under pms. but yest was..sad. which is highly diff frm upset. so decide to do self containment (as usual) and distract myself with a comic bk and wwe at the same time. i mean, how can one cont being sad when there testosterone-charged males beating each other up and a COMIC bk ya? apparently you still can. sad enough to even cry when the dog in the comic died. yep. nurul cried when she read a COMIC, FICTIONAL dog died. seems like pathethic-ness have reached a new level..guess theres only so much one can take, even cold me. kinda like a bottle of water. cont dropping stones in it the water will overspill one day. problem is who's gonna wipe the water that have spilled? the bottle apparently.

nvm shall ignore..thou shalt not stay upset or sad for long..waste energy..just..learn to let go. slowly but surely and mebbe it'll be easier to make a clean break later. is it to reach zen-ness is to not feel anything? have any emotions? gosh i sure like to do that. its exhausting to deal with emotions.

do you know there're more chickens than people in this world? amazing ain't it?

just keep swimming just keep swimming..

posted by nuVul @ Sunday, July 31, 2005