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turnaround

you know, was about to put up a very nice happy happy post but unfortunately, my dad just spoiled it. how? by incessantly nagging abt next year. again. only this time, its downgraded from ragging abt my non-applying for smu to nagging for me to apply for a malaysian university.

hello?

first of all, i dont do malay. thats the reason i dropped the stupid subject as soon as i got my b3 for o'levels higher malay. i whooped with joy, i renounced my language, i threw all my malay books away! and now he wants me to go to a university where english is a foreign language and actually have to write a thesis in the effing language? NO thank you.

secondly, i dont belong in malaysia. nothing against the country or their education systems but its just not my culture. dont tell me am malay so i SHOULD be interested in all these. truth is, am not. and i'll never will be. ever. call me ungrateful, betrayer of culture whatever, but after a year of having the culture shoved down my throat by cikgu manaf, anything and everything malay just put me off. and he wants me to go there, live there, and study.

and the ppl? if i dont even mix around with the malay kids here, how am i going to survive there? bad english, being ragged because i dont speak their language when i should because its my mother tongue..yep, it's so going to be a wonderful education trip.

my dad's just brilliant. of cos, he'd conveniently forgotten what i've told him of my plans for next year. mebbe if i tattooed it on my forehead, he'll remember and stop ragging at me. and i was going to ask my aunt next week too..i just love the faith he has in me.

somebody is soo going to get the silent treatment.

i really cant wait to get out of here. to escape from my parents. to get away from them trying to live through me by giving me insane suggestions and steering my life down a path i've truly have no interest in. it's my life. i have the right to decide my way. you have no right to get angry if i dont go down the path that YOU want me to go. so what if you think it's attractive as a lifestyle. I am the one who have to go through it. why dont you just understand and leave me alone?

so much for the season to be merry, goodwills towards men and all that.

i want that fast forward button.

posted by nuVul @ Sunday, December 25, 2005