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-dawn rescue
it was so pitiful

this morning after sahur my mom made me look for the cat which had been mewing for a very long time. it sounded so pathetic really so went out, followed the sound, lifted up few concrete slabs...and saw smthg wagging without a body.

obviously it freaked me out because the wagging thing was mewing really loudly and i had zero idea what it was. so went to grab my torch, put in new batteries, an old cloth and went back down to investigate. shone the light at it and it was..

a really tiny kitten.

i dont think it should even be called a kitten yet cos it was too tiny..like it was just born. and it cant see cos the eyes arent open yet. wonder how it managed to end there? well, there's hole in the slabs..and i could hold the creature in one palm. thats how small it was..

brought it up, freaked mom out cos it does look kinda disgusting, being dirty and wet and so very the small..anyhow tried to feed it some milk but it cant lick and there's no syringe around to deliver the milk directly to its mouth. put it in a comfy box with the cloth and had to bring it down cos mom was really freaked out. so put it at lift landing went up and tried to sleep.

cant.

checked on the kitten this morn, it was mewing really loudly and pitifully..and strangely..sounding like it's losing hope to live without its mom. it just tore my heart. left it in the sunshine for some warm till i come back from the shop..five min later i returned and it was

gone.

with the box. i hope some kind soul found it and it has a proper home now. hope its warm and fed. i just hope its still..alive.

i'm sad. i was this close to keeping it for myself too. everytime i close my eyes i see it pitifully scratching the box for its mom and how bedraggled it looked. i can hear its mewing in my mind. hear it losing hope. feel like i've disappointed a fellow living creature who depended on me. its like attending to someone who's fatally injured and you cant help him cos you're helpless and clueless as to how to do it. i wanted to stroke it properly but am scared if the mom found it she wont take it back because of the human scent on it.

am really really REALLY sorry kitten. =(

is it selfish to ask God to look after the kitten when there are thousand people dying in other countries? mebbe they have a pet department in heaven? i really hope the Big Powers up there is keeping an eye on my poor little fella.

am being silly huh? its just a cat after all.......but it was SO small..

felt like i abandoned a baby. technically i did of course. at least another kitten is safe at home huh?

Vow: to adopt a cat from SPCA when i get proper stable income.

mebbe thru that, i'd feel absolve from my guilt now.

am sorry..

posted by nuVul @ Wednesday, October 12, 2005