i've thought abt it
and i realize that a lot of people have no idea what they are doing. i dont have any idea, you dont have any idea, even that big hat in the white house has no idea what he's doing. the only thing that know what they are doing is germs and virus: to infect and kill as many people as possible.
up next: The Not So Straight Times: The REAL Reason for the Bird Flu Outbreak; Stop Global Warming by Eliminating Vegitarians!
nope, its not any medication side effects.
i dont believe this.
i. am. sick.
bone tired and the most ridiculous argument i ever had.
in a gist, its abt boob size. dont ask me how that happened, it just did. anyhow today was a great day to shop cos they're lotsa stuffs and sales (hello? samuel and kevin t shirts for only $7/9 !!)..and ramen ten at far east plaza is halal!! yay!! halal jap food! must try one day..tried fried mars bar, not smthg i'll wanna taste for a long time but if you like really sweet stuffs, go for it i say.
i wanna buy soo many things but i cant cos i'll feel extremely guilty cos am broke and i need the money for sch too..i wonder if i can work in kino during the weekends when sch starts instead of just quitting..shall ask but that will make me EXTREMELY busy. on the other hand, if i arrange my schedule properly, i'll never get monday blues again! but that will cut in seriously in my social time which is very limited already, and if i barely have time to meet shafi, then the chances of meeting the others are...slimer. well..we do what we have to do..even if its not nice..all for the future..it's all for the future..for the future....
oh yes! i cant donate blood! again! hmph! fine! just because of a measly 0.01 less iron tch! i seriously dont believe that the large amt of iron pills i've consumed (oh yes, they're a LARGE amt) did NO difference at all to my iron count. do i have to eat 10 pills at a go?? hmph! fine! i am not meant to have normal iron count i think.
OR maybe those brown tablets i've been taking arent iron pills! they're probably copper pills or some rusted metal pills! *gasp* this calls for an experiment! ok, i'f anyone needs me, i'll be in my room with a magnet trying to see if the pills are really iron.
*stalks to room with a large magnet in hand*
hyper and i dont know why!
truthfully am dead tired but running high on adrenaline so..boink! *bounce around* not enough attention for long entry therefore shall succumb to the best creation in literary circle (according to me)...point forms!
- tuition today urgh! never have murder seems so beautiful..
- i got my kino staff card today! and my pic looks so retarded that it's funny! oh yeah regarding that, i only have till 23th june to use it cos that should be my last day there (sch start on 26th!) so..not long time guys..
-oh yeah!! i witnessed someone trying to shoplift books from kino. dumb mick..its not like you run out straight into the street..you have to first get to right exit and down the escalator, dodge the crowd as you run down more escalators, and FINALLY out onto the street. all these time having to also outrun numerous security guards, not only of the store but of the building. so you see kids, crime DO NOT pay..unless you're part of danny ocean's crew of course
i've decided that i love the calling, that spiky brunnette guy frm bbmak, and hugh jackman.
am running high on optimism. mebbe that explains why am feeling uber hyper now. am happy happy happy and i dont know why. have lots to think abt but even so am happy..inexplainable happiness and damn it feels good.
Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
Because these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
time for change..
its so easy to just settle down with what you have even if its not enough..but to make the first effort to change is hard, and extremely scary. of course sometimes the leap in faith may be a few yard short and you'll fall to a lower platform and have to climb up again, but sometimes..you'll end up in the other side.
looking back at 2005, am actually glad i didnt get into uni. my blinded path of pri->sec->jc->uni was not enough and am glad that i had the oppurtunity to stop and fig out what i truly want to do in my life. and since i miss studying, it's a gd build up to be a full-fledged nerd too!
i think each new year, you're allowed one wish. wish for anything, and you'll get it. eg 2003 i wished to end up in council (wish made somewhere in may but it worked!), 2004 was for a _________. i think subconsciously 2005 was for a change, and this year, to get back in sch.
i've made a leap and it turned out favourable. dare i make another different leap? hmm..too late for that. but at least there's already a safety net below this time.
fear of the unknown is not an excuse for inaction.
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if your name is natasha fernando and just turned 20 today...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!on a totally irrelevant note, i think the reason i dont hold much esteem on males generally is genetics.
news flash!!
I GOT IN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *cheers!!**jumps up and down madly, cheers more and continue jumping up and down* OMG!!! no wait, THANK YOU GOD.
wow! i dont believe this. dreams are prophetic! at least my dreams concerning me are..ok, relax..breathe..thing of one major hurdle you have to go through before you can actually put on the uniform..breathe..
heck la, will think abt that on monday! yay! yay! yay!!
in love, loved, and a chance to do smthg i truly will enjoy. life is sweet =D
jamie oliver i am not.
today i tried to bake rocky road cookies. needless to say it was not as successful as i would like it to be. the first tray was a disaster! subsequent ones were okie..the big QC (ie mom) complained that they were pretty bland till i shoved a marshmellow topped one to her afterwhich the verdict was "good!" *yay!!*
anyhow today i also learnt that melted marsmellow, when cooled, have the same consistency as melted mozarella but X2 of the sticky-ness..ah well..
i'm just not meant to cook..you have been forewarned.
rectify.
ok to extend the list of ppl i'm really happy to have around, include chee wei and nat..and and everyone else! ok, if we're on talking terms then am really happy to have you around! hugz
ok that octopus joke is really ridiculously funny! and i'm still laughing abt it after 2 days! all your fault! grinz
oh yeah..am now considered a staff in kino (for now), which means...staff card! so if you want any books tell me AND pass me the cash (cos am perpetually broke) and i'll get it for you (20% discount!).
thats all for now.
occupational hazard.
as of today. i declare valentine's day hazardous to one's health and will try to hide under my bed for subsequent of this festival so as to be able to enjoy the rest of my days in peace. in one piece as a matter of fact.
well if you almost got run over by a giant teddy bear, was withered on the spot cos you nearly squashed someone's magnificent bouquet ( she left it on the floor, i was piled high with books tottering back to academic counter. NOT my fault, idiot tch!), you'll feel the same way as i do too.
good thing its only a Day.
true.
i love this song and am sure you will too =) turn up the vol and chill ppl. *multiple hugz for everyone*
no more trouble and am happy.
sending in application tmr..anxious and nervous too..wish me luck!
hmm..do you remember how you meet your friends? like each individual experiences? for me, all the ppl i'm close to now, i hated at first sight grinz. total turn around. but i still have no idea how and when me and jaren got close..big mystery..anyhow for yesterday, am really glad for weewee (love ya!), cassie (love ya too!), iskandar (thank you!), wei qi (lalala), jaren (thank you thank you)..all my red cross girls (yay!), phoebe (partner forever and still confuse of relationships eh pardner?)..and of cos shafi (what to say? love you always darling)
pretty mushy mushy..wel happy valentines day in advance ppl..
and cassie's gone! sniff
do come back end of this year we have unfinished business!
sigh..
the young endless..cute eh?
let's see now..from the left, there's Desire ad then its twin Despair, the youngest Delirium (once Delight), then of course, Dream, then Death, the eldest Destiny, and lastly the prodigil Destruction.
and i have a crush on
Desire.
not male nor female, anyone who sees Desire will want it so much that nothing else could replace the longing. i believe them.
you know, i've never been this obsessed over a book series before.
anyhow am still in trouble but not really but it still very much feels like trouble and i cant seem to get out of it even though there seems to be no more trouble but in actual fact its hanging right above me. to be fair, its my fault.
i'm sounding like Delirium.
you're the center of adrenaline, and i'm beginning to understand.
never want to fly, never want to leave, never wants to say what you mean to me.figures.
nitez everybody *pulls back blanket over self*
whats in a name?
Her: does it bother you that your name is backwards?
Him: what?
Her: your name. Alexander is suppose to be a first name and Campbell the last name..or a soup.
*comes out from under blanket* happy birthday weewee! =D
in a funk.
i am sad, tired, hungry, anxious and a touch of depress. chalk it under losing the wallet and its cantents, finance, future anxiety, missing, and pms. and i got into trouble and even if its not trouble really i'm still in trouble cos i started the trouble and am now still in troule cos i think i'm still in trouble and it feels like i'm still in trouble.
i want smthg hot that ooze out chocolate.
normally i'll kick my own ass to get out of this kind of mood but i think for now i'll just hide under my blanket till the sun shines again.
the world is coming to an end!
because i lost my wallet. ME! i have lost a possession! its unbelievable. I dont lost wallets! its always someone else who lose theirs not me. i'm as good as surgically attached to my wallet and my hp. i dont go anywhere without them!
so today i woke up, dressed, packed bag, realised wallet was missing, panicked, turn room upside down and was late for work. then, at work, i tripped over everything that can be tripped over eg, books, files, box, stuffings, same box, my feet, chairs, same box again, the dustbin, the same box again, did i mention the same box again? and thats only the first hour. oh wait, i forgot. on the way to work, all messy haired, i realised that the comb i've been clutching had mysteriously disappeared! so hair was definitely baaadd. and now am home, had turned the kitchen upside down as well and still no wallet!
frankly i'm not optimistic abt it turning back up. and the clinching point is, my darling wallet decided to go houdini on me..2 days before my pay day!! *screams in frustration!* fantastic huh? lets see now..already 100bucks is gone for a new i/c..50bucks for new ezlink..then lib cards..cashcard..at least the atm cards are replaced without charged *gloom* have so many things in that wallet..a card frm phoebe, another from weiqi and short letter frm shafi, the 1-dollar note that floated out from under my desk in geog class 2 years ago! my mtv stick on tattoo for that mtv awards promotion thingy, and my nice tiny figurines of a butterfly and a star with a diamante on each one..and the wallet itself! it was a birthday present too! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!
hows
that for monday blues eh?
2 gripes and an ode
gripe.
WHY IS THERE SO MANY MALE PERVERTS IN THE WORLD?? and why do I have to be the one encountering them?? its disgusting, its nauseating, and just plain AAAARRRGGGHHH!!!!
in january, there's that horny guy who couldnt keep his hands of his girl (the boat quay guy), that roving eye fella who stared openly at the white lady exposed cleavage, AND this guy on the train who invaded my personal space! so its before cny and everyone was rushing around carrying huge huge parcels and getting pushed onto the train. that is still NO REASON FOR YOU TO STAND 6 INCHES AWAY FROM ME, LEANING AGAINST ME TILL MY BOOK IS PRESSED AGAINST MY CHEST! *glare* next time someone do that, i will push him away no matter how unspacious the space was. ok am still pissed off abt this. hello you pervert! there's a space a few steps away why come to me?? *evil glare X 100000000000000000000000000000000000000* pervert.
febuary is just stunning. its bad enough you go after women but girls??!!! little girls?? PRIMARY SCHOOL GIRLS??!!! this indian man on the train *do you see a pattern here* was sharing a pole with me, and 2 sisters who were from a madrasah sch. there cant be more than pri 3? 4? and the younger was probably pri 1? and he was so interested in them, that
he tilted his head to look into the younger girl's mouth when she opened it to show her sister what she was eating! like what the f***! what the hell is wrong with you?? god that made me SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MAD that i stared at him the whole journey (reynolds' classes were good training for this) and made his journey all uncomfortable cos everytime he turned to look at me i gave him the most evilus scornful look the-you're-worst-than-the-scummiest-creature-in-the-entire-creation look and made sure he could
feel my eyes on him the whole time.
i am SOOOO ANGRY at all these. what the fuck man??!!! oooohhhh!!i'm so mad that the next time i see or encounter a pervert i'm gonna kick his balls so hard they will replace his brains.
and i'm not kidding. i think i shall sharpen the tip of my shoes too, for that extra kick.
gripe part 2.
WHY ARE THEY NOT GONNA SHOW GILMORE GIRLS ANYMORE UNTIL MARCH?? WHAT ON EARTH IS SO IMPORTANT THAT YOOU HAVE TO POSTPONE THE SHOW TILL NEXT MONTH AND LEAVE ME HANGING THERE? WHY? WHY?
whatever it is, it better be important or good! *grump*
an ode.
to the most nicest librarian in the world! from orchard lib who helped me keep the sandman comic cos my card had no more space till the next day! thank you so much! *cheers* and at no cost too! *cheers more* librarians are cool. after all, as lucien says and i quote, "a country that does not value its librarians, does not value ideas."
of cos its great that i found ANOTHER of the comic when i went to pick the kept one *yay*
an end to a valiant vessel.
today was a terrible day. my trusty, loyal, faithful cheery yellow penknife was very mercilessly, in cold-blood, MURDERED by a box. yes, thats right, a BOX.
the horrible deed was done this afternoon, when a mountain of Box blocked my way. feeling utmostly irate as the day had been long and the tasks trying, i sought the help of Penknife.
'help! there's a box in my way and i hate it!'
'worry not my dear! just extend all my blade and together, we shall attack!'
*extend blade right till the end*
'ready my dear?'
'yeah! heeee-yaaa!!!'
*thrust blade into box*
*blade snapped!*
'oh nooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
aaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!! penknife!!!'
'bbee ss, strong my dear.' *expire*
'nnnnooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!'
tragic. the good always die young *sniff*
lets have one minute of silence to my beloved penknife.
dear diary,
meet shafi. the most EXASPERATING bf in the whole wide world. the one who dragged me to the other end of the island, and then walked int the hot blazing sun to the science centre. 'just a bit further' he said, as we trundled on with the end nowhere in sight. not till we were stopped by a grp of indonesian nationals asking where the snow city is that he whipped out his street directory (!!!!!) and realized that....we were heading the wrong direction.
meet shafi. a slipper killer shoe murderer. i always knew that he and my trusty brown slippers were not a good pair up. the number of times he 'accidentally' stepped on them. well yesterday he killed it by giving one final all mighty STEP! and the strap, weary of the never ending battle, expired. in the middle of the science centre. it let out a pitiful whimper and that was the end of it. leaving ME half barefooted, at the other end of the island. oh yeah, i forgot i was with SHAFI. so mr fix-almost-everything turned my nice cheery slippers into a sorta frankenstein one till we got me new ones. surprisingly it held up well! *cheers* so i got new slippers. which, by the nasty step he executed yesterday too, foreshadow a second world war. is nobody's feet safe anymore? stay tune
i think he learnt an impt lesson yest too. like never give me a soft toy when i'm extremely bored. the frightened, puzzled, highly bemused, amused, my-gf-is-crazy look was hilarious though. grinz
litten yitten.
