-hyper
boink
looks like blogger aint in the mood to accommodate me now..funny look of board..heck la..
man i feel like doing smthg extremely strenuous but fun. like a super fantastically fast game of netball..not a gd time to be hyper..end an hour early tmr! whee!!
thinking me previous entry's kinda harsh..what happen to turning the other cheek? but..nah..
gosh feel like doing aerobics (in the middle of the night..brilliant nurul). hey d'ya know i've not touch ANY chocolates or ice-cream since my ben&jerry's chubby hubby entry? i'm so proud of myself since i'm usually a huge chocoholic..one more mth!
i've been reading this anthropology book and they're discussing in depth abt evolution but i cant help thinking where does God fits into all that..do we really come fm monkeys? or we were THAT ugly? when the Al-Quran states that Man is God's creation and i dont think adam and eve were created by Him like that..so..which is true??
its nice to have someone to love and love you in return.
have a nice day/night everybody!
-racism
one step too far
do you know abt the 3 s'porean guys (one of them is 17...) who got charged for being blatantly racist against the malays in their blogs? well, i read one just now, and i have a msg for him.
hey dude,
dont you ever get claustrophobic in that narrow-mind of yours? in fact, i doubt there's enough room to swing a mouse, much less a cat in that teeny room of mind of yours. now, as much as everyone's allowed to have their own opinion, there has to be a limit as to what you wanna publicise. i do have a bone to pick with one of your comment.
for dissing the kaabah in mecca, you've gone waaaayyyyy over the line. so, though i've only done this once, and have sworn i'd never do it in my entire life, i'll make an exception for you.
fuck the hell off mister.
that Kaabah is NOT just A rock. its a pillar of our faith. obviously you know NOTHING of Islam so just shooting your mouth off abt the muslims just shows how ignorant you are. and for that, you have my deepest pity.
its really sad to have ppl like you calling yourself humans as in another place, you're no better than hitler's nazi and hitler himself. i hope your charges stay on your permanent record so other's will know exactly what you are.
what goes around comes around mister. if you're smarter than all us 'rodents' who are all 'too stupid to enter the universities' , mebbe you'll now be smart enough to keep your big fat mouth shut and keep your empty thoughts to yourself. and while you're at it, go and find out more abt the things you're ignorant off ( the list must be pretty unexhaustive from the looks of it).
oh yeah, same goes to the other 2 fellows.
sincerely,
nurul
i'm sorry, but with rotten things like them existing here, its becoming harder to be patriotic. so much for racial and religious tolerance huh ministers? God forbid if those ppl become parents. *shudder*
a ku klux klan in s'pore!
-third post
so sue me
Hey,
If we can't find our way out of these problems
then maybe we dont need this
standing face to face
like enemies at war we build defences
And secret hiding places
I might need you to hold me tonight
I might need you to say it's alright
I might need you to make the first stand
'cos tonight I'm finding it hard to be your man
hold me tonight
say it's allright
Hey
More than angry words i hate this silence
it's getting so loud
well i wanna scream
but bitterness has silenced these emotions
it's getting hard to breathe
so tell me isn't happiness
worth more than a gold diamond ring?
i'm willing to do anything
to calm the storm in my heart
i've never been the praying kind
but lately i've been down upon my knees
not looking for a miracle
just a reason to believe
i might need you to hold me tonight
i might need you to say it's alright
i might need you to make the first stand
because tonight i'm finding it hard to be your man
Do you remember not long ago?
when we used to live for the night time
cherish each moment
now we don't live we exist
we just run through our lives
so alone
that's why you've got to hold me
Hey,
If we can't find our way out of these problems
then maybe we dont need this
standing face to face
like enemies at war we build defences
And secret hiding places
I might need you to hold me tonight
I might need you to say it's alright
I might need you to make the first stand
because tonight I'm finding it hard to be your manfamiliar? savage garden's hold me..
oh to dream of rainy weather with good music, book and company..
-aura all over
am very confused
i just sat thru a whole scientific lecture on auras and electromagnetic waves..in MALAY..enough that i got the gist of it..admit was bored simply because..but i've also learnt a fool proof lie detector test simply because the brain dont lie..right, so who wanna be first? *evil gleam in eye*
time to surf and correspond..
do you know that from the moment i got back my internet connection till now, my norton antivirus had protected me, us, against 7215 viruses? amazing *shakes head*
-thursday,friday,saturday
the fantastic, the ok and the slacking..
i had the best day on thursday which i've never had for a long long time. very busy packing day with means i dont get shuffled from one person to another, and lunch at delifrance with chee wei which was nice cos its lunch and i was starving! oh and discovered i can actually sms cassie! totally cool! (btw nat, i tried to sms you but i think you didnt get the msg?) . then got asked out for dinner by his truly with a lovely surprise, a nice red rose! (its still alive btw, i put it in water in that Yorkie can) count that as the cherry on my lovely day..oh yeah, went to eat at the arab place at bugis and the crispy chicken was absolutely fantastic!! a company home *litten yitten vitten mitten kitten* and the rest of the night, unconscious on my bed..
life just got brighter..
i want to open another bank account..mebbe at ocbc? cos the card is orange! or red i think..hmm..i really wanna spend my day at home but unfortunately have to go to some talk abt aura (of all thing) with my mom and aunt..hope its not boring..
terrorizing fishies tmr!
-sugar overloaded but still malnourished
i hope you're proud of yourself nurul *reproachful look*
an off day! *bliss*
have a craving for yummy hot sardine puff. a gd one. not those cheapo ones where its chockful of onions and a tiny lump of sardines *yech!*
miss berenice for some reason. cant wait for dec cos then she'll be back! *yay* and jaime too *yay again* hope can meet up at least once, can we jamster?
otherwise, a blank post.
-a mean of expressing oneself
is it time to grow up already?
Yet, as was her nature, she still had hope. Her heart clenched like a fist around the nugget of hope; and if not as much as a nugget, then at least a pebble; and if not a pebble, a grain. But around a single grain of sand, an oyster builds a pearl. Dean Koontz 'The Taking'i never really like poems simply because i dont really appreciate their subtle nuances. but i suppose they do have their merits.
[Poetry] may make us from time to time a little more aware of the deeper, unnamed feelings which form the substratum of our being, to which we rarely penetrate; for our lives are mostly a constant evasion of ourselves.
—Simpson’s Contemporary Quotations
-furu glasses and contact lenses
my eyes hurt!
tgif. seriously. am tired and still have half a day more to go..found out that picking out books in the store is a really interesting experience! first you get all disheartened by books on terrorism and america's might and george bush's idiocity ( an amazing number of books are on this subject matter). then, when you least expect it, you pick up a book on battling cellulite and found many many pages of people's butt staring back at ya (i've been mooned by a book!). to top the shenigan off, when you have to reach at the highest shelf for this one and only book, another book dropped at your feet, pages disarray. you pick it up at the page it landed and immediately see the word 'masturbation' screaming at you complete with a diagram of a fig 's hand on his manhood and you realize that its a complete book of penis, right there in your hand. *blush*
everyday is an adventure at kino.
cant wait for day to end. am really starving now and sho and very shleepy. zzZzz...
my aunt wants me to get contacts. should i? do they hurt a lot?
i've come to bury caesar, not praise him.
-i'm allergic to kids
thanx to my fav student
nothing much to say but i just GOTS to put this in
Me: so the steel cup of hot coffee will cool down faster than a wooden cup of hot coffee?
Kid: yes.
Me: why?
Kid: because the steel cup is cold-blooded.
i'm so not kidding. it happened just two hours ago.
WHAT am i gonna do with that kid??
-a mouthful of vulgarities
but too much discipline to spew them out
have you ever felt an innate sense of jealousy which is dumb and futile cos there's nothing you could do abt it cos thats just the way life is? that you should just accept your lot in life and stop wishing for other's? i do. or rather i am. and its crap really, cos its just making me surly and long to snap at the person whom i envy, which, will bring disastrous result.
extremely disastrous.
so i should just shut up and move on with my life.
in case thou is wondering, am not this bitter. as a matter of fact i hate feeling jealous. but when you rub it in my face..there's a reason why i keep my hand occupied...
forget it and move on already.
cycled to esplanade today..was pretty fast considering used to take the whole day just to get frm home to east coast and back again. wished can stay at esplanade till night tho cos there's this band doing soundcheck and they sound pretty good..oh well..and it POURED. for hours..wasted hours..but am now safe and sound at home, immobilized cos my legs ACHE with a capital A. saw the route of the army half marathon (21km) so wei qi, best of luck.
they found a head of a chinese woman behind orchard mrt yest..everyone at the office was very excited abt it. and after i ended tuition late last night, i felt like beheading someone too..
from wise cracking colleague: "why you all so excited? never see human head before izzit??"to boy clinging at straws: me: "if trees photosynthesise in the morning, what do they do at night?"him: "urm...urm...SLEEP!"to shafi being..well, SHAFI:him: (at car who spasled up a big puddle of water) "hah! you idiot! idiot! E-d-i-o-t!"me: "urm, sir? actually its I-d-i-o-t"him: "oh yeah!"life is just one big stand-up comedy. who's up next?
-i'm busy now
i'll ignore you later
today's friday *gloom*. bet you never see that before, a gloom for a friday. well its gloomy if your day is long and you still have to teach a kid who'll highly aggravate you and you cant yell at him simply cos he's not your brother. i can definitely think of other stuffies that i rather do on a friday night.
one more gloom factor: i returned my lib bk! its not overdue, its not even due and i was in middle of reading abt spontaneous human combustion and the links to the devil and i had to return it why?? because it set off the stupid alarm at this orchard library!! aaarrrggghhhhhhhh!!!!!!! so its more of an aaaarrrggghhh factor instead *gloom* i want my book back!!! waaaaa!!! what am i suppose to do on the long train journey?? waaaaaa!!!!!!
i wonder if the librarians are able to shelf it within my lunch hour so i can borrow it again...
Brimstone / Douglas Preston and Lincoln Child. if you find it, read it then tell me the ending cos i cant UNTIL i find the book again *glare at the alarm system*.
i should just stop blogging instead of venting my spleen abt the alarm system..i'd better be able to find it again..OR ELSE! grrrr.....
-i solemnly swear i'm up to no good
actually, am i good in the first place?
i confess! i'm a pig! and i've learnt my lesson! i'm not gonna touch any more sweets, chocolates, soft drinks, and ice cream and all other confectionary till at least after hari raya. and am not gonna entertain any other ice-cream except sorbets and frozen yogurt. am so ashamed!
add chubby hubby to my list of ben&jerry's ice-cream which i refuse to touch. its an embarrassing way for a blissful ice-cream experience to end. at least, i wont be sugar saturated cos its not digested yet. thank you God.
i got a msg from aisyah:1)
hey dear,I'm so so sorry for not replying. I really did save your previous e- mail into my diskette so I can type on my com and send it later. Well since I don't have internet access I have to go to the school librr and sometimes I have so much school wrk to do dat it doesn't permit me to go to the librry and every week I have tests seriously they just want me to be consistent dats all. I'm realy and truly sorry I noe dat it is not an excse but do u noe I feel guilty everytime I think about u guys cos I haven't reply to your e- mails and not updating u guys about my life.2)
I can never ever forget u guys, never. But next year I'll most probably be getting an internet connection so I can go online n msn and chat with u guys. Hopefully but no guratee. My exams are at the end of september and dat will be the end of semester one and beginning orf semster two. so fast rite.3)
I'll type a longer letter, after my exams k. Insyahallah.Miss u lots, love u too send my love to everyone.Aisyahthats abt all that you should know. so dont worry guys, our friendly squirrel is well and safe in australia! am not sure how many concillors read this so pass on the msg.
miss you lots ais and looking forward to seeing you again! hugz
-help!
run!
cant...stay.......awake...must save consciousness.....ack!! NO!! run! its......nap attack.........it got me! zzZz....
no, really am awake. just barely. wanna go back to sleep..cant believe i woke up just for dinner..whats food compared to sleep?? said the girl who eat a meal a day. dont get me wrong, am not dieting but just...plain...lazy. how lazy can one be when it comes to eating you might ask. well, lets put it this way..if i'm hungry but too lazy to chew, i wont bother eating. if i'm hungry but feel that the kitchen is too faaaaarrrr away, then dont bother.
but enough abt my eating habits.
i met wen hui at the lib today (yay!) still the same..as always..but its nice to see a friendly face which i havent seen for long time after work. gd luck on your geisha project!
uber short attention span. so shall scratch my not-so-straights time till next time. like when i'm more awake.
i've decided to have a cat when i have my own house. so can scratch the husband idea cos i only need one to cook for me cos i dont like to cook much because am too lazy to eat properly. therefore shall get a cat and get like pizza for dinner nightly or smthg of the like.
see you when i see you sgt.?
gdnight everybody! and have a nice day tmr!
-short attention span
and easily distracted
i typed out an entry on racial harmony but its gone cos of the above reason. will just say this: if you're one of those who discriminate or take advantage of others who are of different race or religion from you, then you're evil. we got two eyes two ears one mouth and every thing else thats anatomically correct for human beans and we're all under the human RACE. only diff colourings. which is cool. imagine a world of only one coloured or one race ppl. very monotone. BORING!
i'm cool with the race department simply because i cant discriminate agaisnt any race wo discriminating myself. i've indian, arab, javanese blood in me, with caucasian and chinese relatives..distant arab one in saudi arabia, africa and u.s. . have many chinese and indian frenz, some malays, eurasians, indonesians..my bf is chinese, my close frenz are chinese and indians and malays...so..tell me what race is there for me to discriminate against?
the eskimos mebbe?
if you discriminate against people, how can you appreciate the beauty of a rainbow?
-nothing to say
take a minute to reflect mon ami..
just a minute to reflect. think globally. what kind of world are we living in? what are we leaving for the next generation to inherit? killing, bombing, nuclear holocoust..what do YOU feel when you open the paper and read about suicide bombers and the London bombing and the Iraqi insurgents bombing mosques..depressing aint it?
i cant walk through underground tunnels without thinking about the London bombing. which is kinda..*insert word here*... cos i have to go through underground almost everyday to get to office. try walking esp along the concourse to the NEL at Outram which is way waaayyyy underground and think abt being bombed. it aint nice. kept thinking abt whether anyone will survive, whether anyone would notify my parents, would anyone tell shafi' ? what about my other frenz? is everyone at the concourse gonna be crushed? cos there's still the NW line above us afterall..
everyone's dying. those in Africa of starvation and disease, those in Middle East and Pakistan of war and suicide bombers, and most recently, those in New Orleans of my dearest Mother Nature. the rich-poor gap is widening greatly in the developing nations, there's disease everywhere, epidemics..new viruses..even our food source aint safe. pollutions, deforestation, desertification..smart bombs invented everyday ( one wish: that one day they make bombs smart enough that it'll make peace among itself instead of killing masses), civillians reffered to as collateral damages (what a laugh!)..
that ladies and gentlemen, is THE main reason why am reluctant to procreate.
leave a child in the world of that? you must be crazy! then again, mebbe the next generation can fix what we cant and what we messed up..
today is the Beslan hostage massacre (
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Beslan_school_massacre) anniversary. take a minute and pray for the kids. please.
only one thing thats indiscriminate in this life and that is Death...
