PMS - when everyone who looks at you deserve a tight slap
-hail the bee-yatch..
its not me. its my alter ego. she got back frm milan and found out the mess i've made and went nuts.
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thomas moranwent to the new national lib yest with shaf..it's..nooottt that spectacular..too many ppl. but hey i got another thomas moran bk there so am not complaining. bonus: its NEW bk. my review on this after i finish reading. decide that he's as brilliant as..shakespeare! but in different manner. have so far read 3 of his bks and this is the fourth, fifth which he had written. i wanna read his third novel 'water, carry me' but cant ever find it..so if anybody found it at any bkstore can help me get it? i'll pay you back.
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full of water and stoneslately have been pretty upset abt stuffs. shall just chalk it up under pms. but yest was..sad. which is highly diff frm upset. so decide to do self containment (as usual) and distract myself with a comic bk and wwe at the same time. i mean, how can one cont being sad when there testosterone-charged males beating each other up and a COMIC bk ya? apparently you still can. sad enough to even cry when the dog in the comic died. yep. nurul cried when she read a COMIC, FICTIONAL dog died. seems like pathethic-ness have reached a new level..guess theres only so much one can take, even cold me. kinda like a bottle of water. cont dropping stones in it the water will overspill one day. problem is who's gonna wipe the water that have spilled? the bottle apparently.
nvm shall ignore..thou shalt not stay upset or sad for long..waste energy..just..learn to let go. slowly but surely and mebbe it'll be easier to make a clean break later. is it to reach zen-ness is to not feel anything? have any emotions? gosh i sure like to do that. its exhausting to deal with emotions.
do you know there're more chickens than people in this world? amazing ain't it?
just keep swimming just keep swimming..
-something stupid
like i love you?
i forgot who sang that song..it was robbie william and nicole kidman..right? anyhow, anyhow, anyhow...qsn: why is it that ppl you think are your really gd frenz arent exactly that when it comes to the crunch but hose that are ok ok buddies are those who'll be with you? its funny come to think of it..nvm, cest la vie.
i've been tutoring this pri 4 boy for some time now. what amazes me abt him is his sieve liked memory..and what makes me panic is his obvious lack in vocabulary and not understanding qsns..mebbe this is an unfair observation but find that guys who are interested in soccer or sports in general have minimal interest in reading. i know my brother is one of them. only reads the comics i borrowed from the lib and harry potter. sadly..anyhow, abt shadiq. thats the kid's name. well, his el is terrible had actually taught him again basic grammar. has have is are likes/like and what-not. i think thats the worst of him. at least maths and science are facts. how do you explain to a kid properly that anticipation is not equaled to psychic? forget the dictionary, the meaning of a word contains more words which he dont understand.
oh yeah been meaning to write this out:
Times booksale
Expo hall 4B
6-9 aug
9-9pm
courtesy of asy's blog ^-^..
i love johnson baby shampoo..old sch but what the heck..the one with wheatgerm extract makes my hair smell really yummy! there's a cat which decided to make the front of my neighbour's house its territory..it actually hissed and snarled at me! me! evil kat!
ok its seriously too warm..
-the evil has landed
i
tried to be nice, i
tried to be tolerant..and see what happened
there's many subjects one can take up to study. am fine with all..except history. its crap. whats the point of studying something that happened not in my lifetime? so we can learn the lesson from the past and not make the same mistake again..right..history always repeat itself. you'd think with all our extremely bloodied past we'll learn smthg..not. leaders are still dumb. idiots all of them are, just like their past counterparts. only the weapons got smarter. smart bomb, high artillery etc..but there's hope..mebbe one day bombs may be smart enough to make peace among themselves instead of blowing things to bits.
but thats not the point.
i hate history. i prefer to move on with life. new beginning. second chance. a new chapter begins *wow*. and know what, as much as i try, i cant fathom why anyone likes to wallow in the past. you're missing the present and the future..the most plausible explaination i came up with is that they're crazy. but nvm. we live in an open minded society after all, and there's room for all of us.
i'm still never going to be interested in history though.
was reading thru a fren's blog..ok, an
acquaintance blog. she's not one i really like, cant stand her mostly..but as i read thru and get to know her pysche, i find she's rather like me. except that she's entirely extrovert and i'm the opposite. its scary. does that mean the ppl i dont like are those that reminds me much of me?
quote: guys like to plough through what to them is a minefield for jokes but to women, landmines. so whatever you say guys, you might offend some lady somewhere, so watch it.
it's too hot to be crabby and bitchy properly
-nothing is sane in this world
my tagboard gone crazy!
if a simple device that allows me to chat with others can go mad what abt the person who install it? definitely plausible..i've no idea what to write abt now mainly because there's much that happened past days but am in no mood to type for long..nvm they can wait..
i've been thinking abt my future, and what i really wanna do..tired of not having a clue when my younger cousins are more sure of their path than me..i suppose its a gd thing i didnt get into uni this year..give me more time to think so i wont make wrong choices..lets see now would definitely NOT want to be a teacher because:-
a) Too many ppl are pushing me to be one..and i dont like to be pushed so am not gonna be one
b) Too many ppl i know wants or is already a teacher. wanna list? heres a few: soo ling and diana who's already in nie, my uncle teaches music and band, my cousin Afifah who's at some pri sch, her dad who was a teacher,a principal and some moe officer, an aunt who teach in brunei etc..and last time i check; shafi, wei qi, weewee, hana, jian all wants to teach too..BORING!
so heres the deal..thought abt it and decided that i want to be in the service sector --> customer service --> tourism/ hotel mgmt/ or mebbe at airport, but hotel mgmt is gd too. fig that i spend lotsa time being nice to ppl even when i dont want to, so why not get paid for it ya? anyhow, its much interesting than teaching, plus getting to meet and deal with lotsa interesting ppl instead of some snotty brat..
but here's a dilemma..how on earth do i get there? seems to be in the wrong stream of study..now i could: a) go back to poly and take up tourism b) check out shatec s'pore and see what they gots to offer c) go overseas..mebbe switzerland..of cos i gotta rob the swiss bank first to do that..hmmm..this shall be plan uh e? ok so what can i do?
first of all i gots to tell my parents..smthg which am not looking forward to..then should i cont to study for a level's next year? i suppose so..just in case..muz find out more first..ok things to do now:-
*cont doing maths pls.. (bleah)
*find out more abt shatec frm adibah and online
*check out the tourism syllabus at poly
*source out other uni may it be overseas that offer the course..aside frm swiss
*fig out how to get into those unis
*tell my parents.
i'm not looking forward to the last task..they'll ask loads of qsn which is not wrong but i just hate answering qsns..my problem i know..why cant they do telepathy!! on second thought no.
so now what? to do that is..i'm really bored finding a job is not doing very well, one can only study so much in a day..wanna go back sch..baaaddd..or at least have smthg proper to do..will have to fig smthg out..soon
its gd to have my thoughts organized..
-all my life with my arm i'm a bad man, even in a fight with my arm i'm a bad man, even in the street all my life i'm a bad man..i'm a bad man, i'm a bad man...its 2.30 am in the morn of sunday..why am i up so late? simple, i just finished watching tv..anyhow i'm THE eldest at home now so MY word is law grinz..mom's not around cos grand's having a kenduri tmr and dad's working..as usual..
anyhow, TV! well was watching..WRESTLING! yep, good ol' wwe..you know how kids rem their childhood with my little pony and smurfs and what not? mine's wwe..or rather wwf as it used to be..cant exactly rem when i started watching..but i witness the popularity of brett 'the hitman' hart, watched his brother, owen hart, passed away cos of a stunt did wrong..i rem razor ramon, the hbk..and of cos, the UNDERTAKER..he was really freaky then..funny i dont rem any matches of hulk hogan and he's supposedly immortal..hmm...
mebbe ppl wonder what a small girl is doing watching all these violent moves? simple, i wanted to watch simpsons and then, wwf was directly before so me and me brother just hang around dad and wait for our turn for simpson and slowly become hooked..absolutely no regrets too..i've grown with them, witness weddings, said farewell to some favourites, welcome new ones..and of coe the entirely wacky and overdramatic actions and portrayal of emotions..like just now..kurt angle and ric flair had a whoo-ing competition which was..entirely..hilarious!
guess this post is dedicated to the wwe stars..esp my favourites: shawn michael aka the showstopper aka hbk (he's like waaayyy hot), the rock (though i havent seen him for almost a year hmm..), stone cold steve austin (he's just cool man..simple life philosophy: raise hell, drink beer), edge (he's tall, he's muscular, he's blond, he's HOT) lolz, and of cos my darling triple h (for sheer manipulativeness and eternally cool..salutations to you sir). yep theres plenty more but if carry on i might as well list all the stars here..
its funny i suppose to have a 19 years old girl going nuts over wwe..but i think i'll always be watching the show..i did left it for abt a year and just recently start watching..it's like coming home again..what i would give to meet them live..in my dreams i suppose..it would be nice to see all the moves up close..what i've tried on my brother (he was a willing participant) just dont look as gd..or mebbe cos we staged our fight in a bed of pillows and cushions..ah well..
one big moment of wwe i'll never ever forget: when brock lestner (abt 300 pounds i think) did his finishing move on (f5) on the big show (7ft tall, 500 ++pounds) and the ENTIRE ring collapse under their weight and massive impact..
oh no! they've kidnapped the '80s! if only i can find the CHAIN GANG for help!
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my shadow's the only one that walk beside meshleepy..
alright..i'm happy..well not exactly but decide its better than being an ass..did i just say ass? i said it again!! shame on you nurul!! *tsk tsk*
am home alone..well technically..dad's asleep, mom and haziq's gone over to grandma for preparation for sunday's gathering and my other brother is in sch *apparently*..seriously think he's out with a girl..sch..pls *roll eyes*..and if its not i'll just get sued for libel? or is it slander..who cares? okiez i'm so rambling..
berenice is back online! =) have not seen her since...new year..and i'll see her again..in dec..wow..and phoebe's online yest too..really glad to talk to her..wonder which other tkgian am i gonna meet online..
am too lazy to think of things to write now..
when its time, you will be missed..but i hope that time wont come..for a long time..
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girls just wanna have funok..final change with the skin..now that i got time to look for one properly..everythings up though the tagboard is screwed up now but no matter..easily fixed..i hope..anyhow i'm using my new pc! very happy with it..tho for some reason my brother has yet to install the microsoft office..games however..typical..
let the music take you and heal your souli've listened to quite a number of songs past weekend..more than i did for awhile. rekindles memories and reminded me that not all songs played in the radio are rubbish..strange am more attracted to class 95 now than the usual perfect 10..guess everybody have to grow up sometime..particularly love the night radio..love songs with yaz..really soothing esp for ride homes..oldies, favourites and decent new ones..none of those rubbish-y r'nb love ballads on sex sex and making love..oh wait they're the same thing..
cos his is the only music that can make me dancestrange how ppl change as they age..where's the girl who was crazy over westlife and adores boybands? the one who blast linkin park and eminem on her cd player? gone apparently..and replaced by one who delights in babra streistand and joni mitchell, michael buble and jazz pieces..well, not entirely gone..done mind them much but prefer the new ones..its just..different..listening to them, i wish i'm on a long drive at night, in a car on a never ending highway. just drive and drive and enjoy the music..fantastic way to unwind..gd motivation to get a driving licence too.
and he means everything to her..her bf..he dont know ..anything about her..and on to other news i suppose..perfectly healthy but dying for a gd distraction..talked to nat earlier online..miss everybody. wish: to have everyone online and chatting together like we used to do in the council room. mebbe one day we can really do that..
weera: i tried this new ben&jerry ice cream today. its fudge covered peanut butter filled pretzel in vanilla malt ice cream with fudge and peanut butter. absolutely love it so we must try it together and analyze it for our food hunt!
there's a marybrown that opened in the airport..was not that bad tho really oily..i wish they bring back they chicken mccrispy frm mac..thats the only reason to eat chicken outside..
i believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness..i believe that your parents did the best job they knew how to dohere's a million dollar qsn..well not exactly but a qsn nonetheless. what exactly is a girlfriend and boyfriend like? i mean HOW are they suppose to act? i wonder if there is a standardize manner of acting. also, how do you differentiate them from your bestfriend, say your bestfriend is of the opp sex? its just really confusing and i've been thinking abt it for long time. fleeting musings which are quickly subverted beneath other thoughts until recently when its waved in front of my eyes. trying to deal with it is another matter. but is it really impt? i dont know..just know that it struck a core and its stuck. for a long long long time. sad..
its all in the way you look through your eyes..and when all is said and done..all of the fears and all of the lies..are not hard to overcome..its all in the way you look at it that makes you strong..interesting how bits and pieces of songs are gems of quotes. offering advice and what-not. this one is my particular favourite. from westlife. amazing smthg this deep comes from a boyband ya? i guess at the end of the day we all need to unwind. the need for music to fill us in indescrible ways. i really miss all those overseas..hope you guys are fine..and if you're sad, just let the song play...
ah, music! a magic beyond us all here- dumbledore
-excuse me for being a cynic
lotsa money going to waste..
see, lotsa happen past three days..in the media world that is..mostly abt money matters..well, theres the minister of sabah's gambling debt peaking at S$5o million (!!!)..and of cos the nkf ceo and the mismanagement of funds thingy..
not going to bother with lashing out against the latter as many sporean have..will just say that it will prolly worsened the charity fatigue that i'm feeling now..am certainly not happy to hear the huge salary per annum, but cant comment on whether mr durai deserved them or therwise but i certainly cant think of any plausible reason to install expensive bathroom facilities and amenities (gold plated tap..just incredible..)..BUT one statement really irked me: $660000 is peanuts compared to the millions he've raised-mrs goh chok tong. urm, with all due respect madam, $660k is not peanuts..its the whole plantation! my dad earns abt$1.5k per mth and it'll take him 36++ YEARS to achieve that same amt..
on to better news..i'm gonna get a new pc tmr! cos the old one is so virus infected i'm surprised i dont get sick just coming NEAR the computer..new harry potter bk coming out! and..oh wait shafshaf's here..war of the world!
salutations to everyone else! *waves*
-Agatha Ripp
its been some time
i dont usually think much abt the shows that i watched but this one particularly disturbs me. nip/tuck, drama of mature themes and graphics. sure its rather known. anyhow, this eps deals with religion and hypocrisy, which though not uncommon, stills touch moi a great deal.
Agatha Ripp's a prostitute who've seen the light (now aint that familiar?) and is currently under the shelter of this church. what makes her real special is the perforations on her wrists which are exact replicas of those on Jesus's when he was crucified. of cos the doctors, Shawn and Christian, thought she's a fraud. which was confirm later on in the show. what struck me as highly inappropriate is the way they manipulate religion to suite their selfish needs. the nun herself nail those holes in agatha's wrists and later on at her foot. its just not right!
i mean, its bad enough that in reality we have idiots like the al-qaedah who claim to be doing God's work in killing thousands of ppl. admit am not a very religious devout. but its just..wrong. sacrilegous. feel that faith in religion is being cartoonized. to be exploited when and where it suits our need. i dont like to see religions of any kind to be treated like this. a bit too much, i feel.
of cos now reality is very skewered, so...sigh..nvm, on to other news.
i had dinner with shafi's family last fri. not by choice, seriously. final verdict: oooookkkkkkla..i'm alive at least. one thing's unbelievable. ask me what i was wearing: low slung hipster jeans and white cropped baby t. how..'appropriate' ya? like i said, it wasnt my idea. 5 min warning cos "its shafi's bdae and i think its a good idea for you to join us" and thats it. abducted. kidnapped. seriously, wouldnt have made a great deal of it if not for what i was decked in. i have my jacket of cos (was at ITE for admin earlier in the day), but it got tomyam-ie cos someone dropped a prawn on it. the story of my life..
went cycling a few days ago. tried an off-road trail. doesnt sound so bad ya? it rained two hours before we went. i've never been dustier and muddier since i got back from obs. it wasnt that bad tho, got to see lotsa colorful soil which i couldnt inspect cos SOMEBODY was going too fast for me to catch up. i am however happy to report there is no visible injuries this time. and i could still walk around..which is a great achievement!
salutations to everyone else *waves*
make me beautiful..a perfect smile..perfect body..a perfect life..
